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Saw a picture of Amber's baby girl today and for some reason it made me feel really sad; she must only be seventeen. The last time I saw her, she was absolutely besotted with Jay - would have married him if only he asked her - but now they live seperate lives. I remember seeing them at Beth's party, a fully fledged couple, snuggling into each other under the disco lights. Of course I was jealous of them - he wasn't there - and took a number of pictures capturing the moment at their request. (Yes, the party was that boring). It wasn't until later that I discovered that there was no film in my camera and as a result, no pictures. It didn't seem to matter though, as they were seperated less than a week later, Jay making it very clear why: he was ashamed of her.

Now I know that I'm not jealous of them at all-Amber met her daughter's father shortly afterwards, a no account who even the chavs turned their noses up at. Jay on the other hand dabbled in drugs and alchohol, getting his face badly disfigured in a fight.

They're happy I guess, that's the main thing.

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I think I am actually having Cascada related withdrawal symptoms. Carley's gone home and the flat feels undeniably bare without the sounds of her thumping bass....